Secretly In Love
[Credits goes to Chantal@wflforums]
Secretly In Love
ft Gackt & Hyde.
+ multi.
Prologue
I lived my life in shadow
Never the sun on my face
It didn’t seem so sad though,
I figured that was my place
Now I’m bathed in light
Something just isn’t right
I’m under your spell
How else could it be
Anyone would notice me?
It’s magic, I can tell
How you set me free
Brought me out so easily
I saw a world enchanted
Spirits and charms in the air
I always took for granted
I was the only one there
But your power shone
Brighter than any I’ve known
I’m under your spell
Nothing I can do
You just took my soul with you
You worked your charm so well
Finally, I knew
Everything I dreamed was true
You make me believe
Ah ah, ah ah ah
Ah ah, ah ah ah
The moon to the tide
I can feel you inside
I’m under your spell
Surging like the sea
Pulled to you so helplessly
I break with every swell
Lost in ecstacy
Spread beneath my Willow tree
You make me complete
Ah ah, ah ah ah
You make me complete
“Hai, you make me complete Gackto-san.”
Chapter 01.
“Boku wa naze, kaze no youni, kumo no youni, ano sora e to ukabu, hane ga nai naze. Hoshi no youni, tsuki no youni, subete tsutsumu, ano yuru e to shizumu hane ga nai aa.”
“Gackto-san, what are you singing?” Hyde asked cheerfully.
“Buk-Tick – Dress; it’s Trinity Blood’s opening theme, lovely ne?”
“Aaah hai, very lovely. Another Japanese rockband huh?”
“Hai, but of course. Haido-san, how long have you been standing over there?”
“Oh, just a few minutes. Did I make you blush? He he… you know Gackto-san, your butt looks really cute in those leather jeans.”
“Haido-san, are you flirting with me?” Gackt asked shyly.
“No, of course not. I have a wife and a son remember?”
“Yea, well I don’t see them around here right now, do you?”
“Gackto-san…” Hyde started to blush.
“Hahaha, I’m just fooling around Haido-san.”
“Right, I must go now Gackto-san. Good luck with your performance tonight.”
“Arigatou, say ‘hi’ to Megumi and your son for me.”
Hyde smiled, “Yea, I will.”
‘Gackto-san, your butt looks cute? What the hell was I thinking? I’m stupid ne!’
“Haido-san, welcome home!” Megumi said when Hyde walked into the living room.
“Konbanwa, Megumi-chan.”
“How was your day? Your son and I missed you.” Megumi walked over to Hyde and wrapped her arms around his neck. She was longing for his lips to touch hers; she leaned forward.
Hyde turned away, “No, not now,” He walked away from her, “and he’s not my son.”
“Not now? What’s that all about? We never have sex anymore. If we don’t have sex now, then we will never have it. Where is the passion we once shared? Are you still mad at me for the mistake I made a year ago?”
“You wouldn’t have made that kind of mistake if you loved me. Look at what you have done, created.” He said pointing at the baby, who was staring at them with big, innocent, Bambi eyes.
“I told you Haido-san; I was drunk, mad, sad, lonely, but most of all sorry. What else do you want me to do?”
“Just stay away from me.” Hyde answered with a cold tone in his voice.
“Why are we still married if I can’t touch you like I used to? Love you the way I want to?”
“Maybe I’m just waiting for the day when I can forgive you and look at that baby without the feelings of hate and anger. I’m waiting for the day to come when I can love that baby like it’s my own, but at this point, my view is blurred and full of doubt. I’m going to bed. Oyasumi, Megumi-chan.”
Megumi just stood there, watching Hyde leave the living room. The baby started to cry. She turned around and looked at the baby with guilt. Then she started to feel very angry and full of hate. Oh, how much she would love to pick the baby up and smash it against the wall. Her legs started to move and her hands reached out…
‘brr brr, brr brr’
“Hello?”
“Megumi? It’s me, your imouto.”
“Eri? Genki desu?”
“Oh, I’m doing just fine. And you? How are you?”
“Doing just fine as well. Why are you calling me?”
“Well, I’m going to be in town soon. I was wondering if you had some free time left over to spend with your little sister.”
“Hahaha, but of course. Will you be staying for a few days?”
“Yes, five days to be exact. Can I stay at your place?”
“No need to ask me, silly. You know you’re always welcomed.”
“How’s my little nephew and Hyde doing?”
“Oh, both are doing just fine as well. Hyde is a bit busy lately though.”
“Hmmm, are you happy oneesan?”
“…”
“Oneesan?”
“Hai, of course I’m happy, imouto.”
Chapter 02.
“I think we need a better song then ‘Gazette - Reila’ and ‘Gackt - Black Stone’.” Tetsu said.
“Oh, and how exactly are we going to pull that one off? Gazette has five band members and Gackt is the greatest Japanese rocker Japan has. Have you lost your mind Tetsu?” Ken replied coolly.
“Well, perhaps I did lose my mind. Let me hear your ideas then.” Tetsu answered irritated.
“…I don’t have any.”
“Oh, you don’t have any? Then why are you judging me, you…”
“Tetsu, Ken, stop it alright, it’s enough. We’ll think of something like usual, but we must think fast, the deadline is next month.” Hyde said.
Yuki looked up, “Next month? Jesus, where did that come from? Now that’s what I call ‘losing your mind’.”
“Hai Yuki, but we need to be fast. I don’t want it to be like last time ever again. Tetsu is right, we need a better single then ‘Reil’ and ‘Black Stone’. We need to put more soul in our music and we have to deal like Gackt, fast.” Hyde admitted with a frown.
“Yea, Gackt throws singles at his fans, lol.” Yuki said with a fake smile.
“Yea well, at least he’s good at it and we’re not. You know that right Hyde?” Ken asked worried.
“Things have to change Ken. ‘New World’ rocked, we need to stay rocking. We’re good, but we aren’t the greatest.” Hyde turned around and walked away.
“Hyde, where are you going?” Tetsu asked.
Hyde stopped and said without facing Tetsu, “I have to clear my mind. I need some time on my own.” He continued walking.
‘brr brr, brr brr’
“Haido-des.”
“You ass.hole; I hope you die and rot in hell!”
“Megumi-chan?... hello?...”
The person hung up and so did Hyde.
‘Man, that was weird. I don’t recognize the number, but the voice sounded familiar… was it Megumi?’
And our guest for this evening is… GACKT, Japan’s greatest rocker. Welcome Gackt, thank you for joining us this evening. Please, sit down.” The female host said.
“Arigatou.” Gackt said while waving shyly at the audience.
“Gackt, do you remember the date you had with one of Morning Muse’s band member, Ai Kago?”
“Hai, of course I remember.”
“The host asked you and Ai Kago if you would be in trouble on a real date and both of you said yes. Many of us wonder why.”
“Well, I’m just a guy. I don’t show emotions that often. My date would be bored to death, because I’m a boring and shy man. It would be very hard for me to please my date.”
“Do you date often?”
“Hahaha, no. I don’t.”
“Aaaw, why not? Such a handsome man like you should not be home alone. I read somewhere about you being homosexual, is this true?”
Gackt started to blush, “Iie, I’m bisexual. I like both men and women.”
“Ever been with a man?”
“Hahaha, what kind of tv-show is this?”
Gackt turned off the tv.
“Oh my god, Gackto-san! Poor you.” Hyde said, trying not to laugh. Gackt’s expressions on tv were hilarious.”
“Don’t you dare laugh Haido-san.”
Hyde couldn’t stop himself anymore, “Hahaha, or else what Gackto-san?”
“Or else I’ll… kiss you.” Gackt said with a big smile.
Hyde stopped laughing right away, totally shocked by Gackt’s words.
“Why did you stop laughing? I’m not a bad kisser you know,” Gackt raised an eyebrow. Then he started to smile naughtily, “But I’ll kiss you anyway. You’re so pretty Haido-san. I have always wanted to know the taste of your lips.”
Gackt walked slowly towards Hyde. Hyde didn’t move a fin, still shocked by Gackt’s words. Gackt pushed Hyde softly down on the sofa and got on top of him. Their faces so close to one another. Hyde could feel Gackt’s breath on his face.
“Gackto-san…”
Gackt placed a finger on Hyde’s lips, “Shhh, you’ll enjoy it, I promise.” Gackt slowly lowered his finger and placed his lips on Hyde’s, studying Hyde’s lips with his. “Hmmm small, but soft, just the way I like it,” Gackt said with a naughty voice, “Open your mouth for me Haido-san, let me taste more of you.”
Hyde did what he was told and opened his mouth slowly; he closed his eyes. Gackt slid his tongue into Hyde’s mouth and played with his tongue. Both started to breath heavier and Gackt tasted more. Hyde went wilder and more playful. Gackt bit Hyde’s lower lip softly as Hyde’s hands moved down towards Gackt’s butt. He studied the curves and squeezed it playfully.
“Oh, f.uck Haido-san. I told you, you would enjoy it sweety.”
Chapter 03.
“Oneesan!”
“Imouto! How are you?”
“Good, it’s great to see you again and yes my journey went well.”
“What is your real reason why you came here? I know you said you wanted to see me and I believe that, but I also know you better than that. Come on Eri, spit it out.”
“I’m in love oneesan, but not in love with Keita-san.”
“Huh? You and Keita are engaged. How can you love someone else?”
“I met him on a big festival a year ago, you were there as well remember? He’s very sweet and caring, his name is Teru.”
‘Oh my god.. my Teru?’ Megumi thought. “Teru? Teru from Glay?”
“Hai, you know him? Well Keita-san and I had a fight that night and I ran into the fields behind the stage, Teru was there as well. It was the greatest moment of my life ever oneesan. I cheated on Keita-san that night and I still do every time I think of Teru.”
“You had sex with him? With Teru?” Megumi asked shocked, “Eri, he’s no man for you. He has two ex-wives and children. Plus he’s twice as old as you are. He’s a player, he’ll tread you like dirt.”
“How do you know? You maybe know his name, but I bet you never ever even spoke a word to him. Here are the facts Megumi: Yes he has two ex-wives, yes he has children, yes I had sex with him and yes I love him.”
Megumi gave up and sighed, “Let’s not fight over men. Let’s enjoy your stay and forget our worries for a little while. Do you want to go shopping?”
“Hai, that’s a very good idea. Aishiteru oneesan.”
“Watashi mo aishiteru imouto.”
“How much did you spend?”
“Hyde, please…”
“No, not this time. Do you realize how much you just threw away? Do you know how many hours I had to work for it?”
“You make millions every year, don’t whine.”
“Yes, every year, not every second. I can never relax or take a short vacation, because you spend money like crazy.”
Megumi looked at Hyde with a pissed off face. “Eri is staying over for five days, ok?”
“Oh, yea, sure. Why not?”
“Fine, f.uck you Hyde. F.uck you.” Megumi walked away while Eri walked into the living room.
“Hi onee…” Megumi bumped into Eri, but continued walking right away, “Oneesan?”
Eri walked towards Hyde, “What’s up with her?”
“Nothing Eri. She’s just upset. How are you doing?”
“Good, thank you for asking. I wanted to thank you for letting me stay here for five days, I could help out if you want me to?”
“No, of course not. You’re our guest, guest should enjoy. So how’s Keita?”
“Keita’s fine as well… Are you happy Hyde? You look tired and stressed.”
“I’m fine, but yea tired and stressed. We need a new single, but we’re running out of idea’s. And your sister is upset all the time and the baby is crying. I need to support all, but sometimes that’s hard to deal with. I lead a busy and stressful life, but it’s worth it.”
“Hmmm Keita is doing fine with his band, maybe a duet would be great?”
“Hahaha, no Eri, no duet’s. That’s not something we j-rockers do, but thank you.”
“Ok, hope I was any help though. I’m going to play with my cousin, he’s so adorable!”
“Yes… yes, he is.”
‘brr brr, brr brr’
“Hello, this is Eri speaking.”
“Eri, where are you?”
“Keita? Oh I’m sorry sweety. I wanted to leave a note, but I forgot about it. Silly me ne?”
“Hai, silly you. Where are you?”
“I’m at my sisters place…”
“Oh, and what are you doing there?”
“Just relaxing.”
“Or are you trying to escape from me?”
Eri sighed, “No, of course not. What makes you think such a thing?”
“Well, I emailed you, I called you earlier, but no reply. What’s wrong Eri? We’re getting married in three months, share with me.”
“I think, you know, it’s all going so fast. I needed some time on my own. Don’t worry, I’ll come back to you after five days,” Tears ran down her pretty young face, “Just five silly days Keita.” And she shut down her cellphone. She placed a hand on her belly and whispered: “…Just five silly days…”
Chapter 04.
“…And now, who stands on the number one? A brand new single by a great Japanese rock band, here’s L’arc en Ciel’s new single ‘Joujoushi’. Thank you for watching MTV and enjoy L'arc en Ciel’s new single ‘Joujoushi’.”
“Oh my god! We did it, number one right away baby!” Yuki screamed happy.
“Hahaha, yes Yuki we did it. I told you we could pull it off,” Hyde replied with a smile, “But the bigger surprise is still waiting and almost finished, our new album.”
“And right after that a new single.”
“Hai Ken, right after that a new single… Hahaha.”
“We’ll be running our butt’s off again.” Tetsu replied.
“Hai Tetsu, but ain’t it all worth it?” Hyde hugged Tetsu and kissed him on the cheek. “Well guy’s it has been a great honour, but I have to leave again. We should go party soon.” Hyde jumped off the sofa and run out of the door. He was hyper active after the great news.
Hyde opened the big white door and entered Gackt’s house. “Gackto-san!”
“Gackt is still asleep, sir.” One of Gackt’s maid’s said.
“Aaah ok, arigatou.” Hyde hang his jacket and pulled off his shoes, next he walked up the big stairs. “Gackto-san, come out come out wherever you are.” Hyde knocked on Gackt’s bed room, but no reply so he entered. “Wake up Gack…tosan.” Hyde saw a girl lying next to Gackt, naked.
“Haido-san?” Gackt mumbled, awaking from his sleep.
Hyde turned around, “I’ll wait downstairs.”
“Yea, ok, sayonara cuty.” Gackt said to the girl who was leaving. He closed the door and walked into the kitchen where Hyde was waiting.
“Who was she?”
“Oh… I forgot her name, but she’s cute ne?”
“Yea sure…”
“Oh, I remember, her name is Yuko Kawakami.”
“The Yuko Kawakami?”
“Hai, met her at a party yesterday. She’s good, very good.”
“You mean good in bed.”
“It’s all the same. She’s just another one night stand.”
“Perhaps she doesn’t feel the same? Ever thought about that Gackto-san?”
“Excuse me, what’s gotten into you?”
“Nothing, nothing. Just stressed I think, sorry Gackto-san.”
“Megumi?”
“Yea, it’s always the same bullshi.t, like it’s never good enough. We had another fight, she went shopping with her younger sister Eri and nearly spend $ 100.000.”
“Now that’s why I don’t want a wife. They cheat, spend all your money and god knows what else. You know I ran into Teru from Glay yesterday as well and he said awful stuff about Megumi and Eri, but he was drunk and jealous I think. He said he slept with both, Megumi and Eri. He’s such a pig.”
“Hahaha and mayor drunk. In his dreams.”
“Hahaha yea, How’s the new single?”
“Number one.”
“Really? Wow that’s great Haido-san! Congratulations.”
“Arigatou Gackto-san.”
“Remember the song we sang together?”
“Hai, lovely. I miss singing with you. Let’s sing it again.”
Gackt gave Hyde a guitar and grabbed his own. “1, 2, 3, 4…”
“Yuugure ni kimi to mita
orenji no taiyou
nakisou na kao wo shite
eien no sayonara
Kirameku nami to tawamureteita
mujyaki na kimi no
sono yokogao suashi de
sunahama wo kakenukeru
kimi ga hitoshii
Suna ni kaita kimi no na to
kazaritsuketa
kaigara ha
kata wo yoseta bokura no mae de
nami ni sarawareta
Yuugure ni kimi to mita
orenji no taiyou
nakisou na kao wo shite
eien no sayonara
Aoi sora ha iki wo hisomete
akai yuuhi ni dakareteyuku
boku mo kimi wo
dakishimenagara
hitomi wo tojita
Ikutsumono yorobi ya kanashimi mo
kazoekirenai deai ya wakare mo
ano koro to kawarazu yasashiku miteru
Orenji no taiyou
Eien wo yume miteta
ano koro no bokura ha
itsumademo hanarezu ni
dakiatte waratteta
Akireru hodo kimi wo omou yo
sore dake de boku ha mitasareru
nakanai de itsudatte aeru yo
Hitomi wo tojireba...
Yuugure ni kimi to mita
orenji no taiyou
nakisou na kao wo shite
eien no sayonara.”
Chapter 05.
brr brr, brr brr
“Hi, this is Gackt.”
“Gackt? How are you? This is Yuko.”
“Yuko? What do you want?”
“Um, well, I was wondering if you wanted to go out on a date with me tonight.”
“Iie.”
“But why not?”
“Because I’m not interested in getting to know you.”
“Gackt? Why are you so rude? Why would you say such a thing?”
“Because I’m not interested in relationships. Yuko, you were just another one night stand. Nothing more, nothing less. Don’t get me wrong, you were good.”
“… So you just used me?”
“Iie, you volunteered.”
“Excuse me? I was not the one who said: Oh Gackt, take me in your arms and f.uck me.”
“Yuko, don’t make a scene ok?”
“Oh, why not? You really think you’re great huh? Well I’ll tell you something mister, I knew I didn’t have a change with you. Your type of men disgusts me. I prayed to god that you would be different, but no can’t do. I feel very sorry for you Gackt.”
Yuko hung up the phone, so did Gackt.
“Women…” Gackt sighed and walked upstairs. He longed for a warm bath. He needed to clear his mind.
‘So many things have happened lately. How am I ever going to keep up? Fainting after every performance. I wonder how long my body keeps up as well. I have girls almost every night, but I want more then just that, more than just plain sex. The passion Haido-san and I shared when we kissed was amazing. My body yearns for him, but how am I ever going to tell?’
He stepped into the hot water and relaxed. He loved the feeling of warm water surrounding his naked body. He took a bath every night for a few hours. No one dared to disturb him on moments like these, unless it was very important. He closed his eyes.
The bathroom door opened and Hyde stepped into the bathroom. Gackt looked up, “Haido-san? What are you doing here?”
“I need a warm bath as well. May I join?” Hyde asked while taking his clothes off slowly. Gackt didn’t reply. Hyde took off his boxers and stood naked in front of Gackt. “Well? May I?”
Gackt nodded, not able to speak. His eyes studied Hyde from head to toe. He had a nice tan, beautiful hair, great body and he was so sexy. Standing in front of him with no shame at all. Gackt knew exactly what Hyde wanted. Hyde came closer and stepped into the bathtub. He leaned forwards instead of backwards. Their naked bodies touched and both got heated up. Hyde kissed Gackt’s neck while moving his waist up and down, rubbing his penis against Gackt’s penis. Both got erected. Gackt planted his right hand on Hyde’s beautiful round butt, while the other hand touched Hyde’s face. Hyde caressed Gackt’s body while kissing Gackt with passion. Hyde loved Gackt’s moaning, like he was screaming for more.
“Haido-san, what are you doing to me?”
“I can’t let you go now, I’m under your spell Gackto-san. I’m yours, totally yours. Lead me to your bed and take me. Take my body and soul.”
Gackt stood up and got out of the bathtub. He lifted Hyde up out of the water and carried him to his bed. Water dripping down their bodies while they lied down on the bed. Gackt got on top and pushed himself into Hyde’s beautiful tight a.sshole.
“AAAH F.UCK!” Hyde screamed.
“Are you oke sweety?”
“Yes, yes. No one entered me before. Dam.n that feels good. Please move my love.”
“Hmmm let me make it easier for you.” Gackt grabbed Hyde’s big penis and started to caress it while pumping in and out. Hyde started to relax and moan. Hyde’s hand moved to Gackt’s hand which was still caressing his penis. “Yea sweety, help yourself.”
Hyde started to masturbate while Gackt was still pumping in and out of him roughly. Hyde felt pain and pleasure at the same time.
“Oooh Haido-san, you’re so fine. I’m going to cum sweety.”
Hyde felt Gackt’s milk inject inside. Warm and erotic. Gackt pulled himself out of Hyde and placed his mouth on Hyde’s penis while his milk flew out of Hyde’s a.sshole. He massaged Hyde’s balls with his hands while sucking like crazy. Hyde moaned loudly.
“Oooh Gackto-san, yes. Oh yes.”
Hyde started to shake all over and felt like he was going to explode. Gackt’s mouth was so warm and it felt so good. His hands did a great job as well. Gackt was truly the best in everything like they all said. Hyde couldn’t hold up any longer and let his milk go. Gackt tasted it and then swallowed it all.
“Hmmm, Haido-san. So much you have given me. You taste so good sweety.” He said while cleaning Hyde’s penis with his tongue. Gackt got up and held Hyde while kissing him. They fell asleep in each others arms.
Chapter 06.
[Credits goes to Chantal@wflforums]
“Hyde, where’s Gackt?” Mana asked.
“I have no idea. Weird ne? Gackt is never late. I wonder what happened. I’ll give him a call.” Hyde replied.
“No, no need to do that, I already did, he doesn’t answer.”
“Hmmm, he’ll show Mana. Gackt would never miss a tv show. By the way, you look great.”
“Aaah, arigatou Hyde. You t…” Mana couldn’t finish his words.
“SORRY! I’m so late and so sorry. I fell asleep while taking a bath.” Gackt said quick. He ran straight to the make-up connor where lots of people were waiting for him.
“It was about time you came!”
“Hai Mana, I know. I’m sorry for not answering your phone call, but you know I can’t risk it while driving, especially on high speed.”
“I understand. So? What you think of my new dress? You like it?”
Gackt took a look and had to agree, “Wow Mana! Great dress. But you know darling, you look great in anything.”
Mana gave Gackt a big smile and started to blush. “Arigatou Gackt.”
Everyone knew about Mana and Gackt. They shared many thing together, even a bed. Well, they used to, but Mana still loves Gackt and does anything to draw attention from him.
“Ok, your done. I had instructions to tell you to go straight to the dressing room for your outfit.” An employee said.
“Aaah, thank you.” Gackt turned around and walked as fast as he could.
“Finally, you’re here. Take off your clothes and put on these clothes.” His manager said while handing over Gackt’s outfit. His manager left right away when Gackt got undressed. He started with the underwear he designed, since he wasn’t wearing underneath his other jeans. He had no time to get dressed properly since he was late. Then he started with the jeans.
“Wow, great shape. Have you been working out again?”
Gackt looked up, “Haido-san?”
“Yea, who else? So tell me, why were you late?”
Gackt was totally shocked, “I… I…”
“You?”
“I fell asleep… while taking a bath.”
“Gackto-san, are you ok? You seem different, shocked. Did something happen?”
“No, just a weird dream.”
“Oh? Want to tell me about it?”
“NO!”
Hyde raised his eyebrow.
“Um, I mean, I can’t. It’s a secret.”
“Aaah come on Gackto-san. We don’t have secrets. Why were you shocked by me? You were perfectly fine until I said something. And do I see a blush? Gackto-san, tell me. Did you dream about me? Now, be honest.”
“It was just a dream Haido-san. It was about me and Yuko. She called, weird phone call. I dreamed about it, that’s all. She did want more, you just reminded me. That’s all.”
‘Oh my god, can’t believe he’s hiding something for me. What could it be? Hmmm.’ Hyde thought. “Ah, so, you dreamed of Yuko?” Hyde asked while walking towards Gackt. “I told you it’s not nice playing with someone’s feelings.”
Hyde stood right in front of Gackt after his last words. Looking up into his eyes with this erotic look. His hand touched his chest and moved downwards. Gackt closed his eyes and thought about his dream. But all Hyde did was closing Gackt’s jeans. Gackt looked down with a big surprise.
“What was it exactly what you wanted me to do Gackto-san? Slide my hand into your jeans and feel you? Or did you want me to kiss you and touch your body. Or did you want both?” Hyde placed his lips on Gackt’s lips and caressed Gackt’s penis from the outside. Gackt went crazy.
“Now tell me. I know you didn’t dream about Yuko, you dreamed about me didn’t you?” Gackt nodded as a replied, not able to speak just like in his dream. “Well then baby, time’s running up and you got about 1 minute left to get ready for the show.”
“Oh! F.uck you Haido-san!” Gackt said snapping out of his fantasy. Hyde played a trick on him and it worked.
“Hahaha, why are you so ashamed about the fact that you dreamed about me? I’m flattered.”
“Yuko did call. She did want more then just a one night stand ok?!”
“Aaaw did I made you upset? Let’s go, the show is starting.”
“Wait Haido-san. Please, let’s keep this a secret.”
“But of course, what’s the use of everyone knowing you had an erotic dream about me and next you came late? Hahaha.”
Gackt smiled, knowing Hyde would keep his mouth shut. “Do I look good?”
“You look sexy my baby.”
Chapter 07.
Knock Knock
Jiro opened the door, “Yes?”
“Konbanwa, Does Teruhiko Kobashi live here?”
“Who wants to know?”
“I’m Eri Kyokuyama… a friend.”
“Wait here…” Jiro said and closed the door.
Eri just stood there in the rain, she was indignant by the fact Jiro let her stand outside in the rain, soaking wet. The door opened, Eri looked up.
“Come in,” Teru said while opening the door for her, “Follow me.”
Eri followed Teru upstairs, into his bedroom. “Get undressed.” He demanded.
“Excuse me? I didn’t came here to get laid.”
“Do you really think that was my plan?” Teru walked up to Eri and touched her arm softly, stroking it gentle up and down. “You’re freezing and soaked. My plan was for you to get a warm shower and for me to get you some dry clothes while yours get dried.”
Eri was totally surprised and started to undress herself. She blushed when she saw Teru looking down on her naked body. Her nipples were erected and her skin was pale. Teru leaded her to the bathroom and left after closing the door.
She walked towards the shower and turned it on. Her skin longed for something warm and it got pleased ones the first warm water drops met her body. She smiled and started to sing.
“Come away with me and we’ll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I’ll never stop loving you
And I wanna wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I’m safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me.”
“Teru, what is she doing here?” Hisashi asked.
“I don’t know Hisashi. She didn’t want to get laid, that’s for sure.”
“You think she wants something from you?”
“Yea, I’m afraid so…”
“Ain’t she engaged with the guy from w-inds? What’s his name again? Keita Tachi…?” Takuro asked.
“Keita Tachibana. Hai, she is. She’s such a whore. I wonder who else she f.ucked recently.”
“You did her?” Jiro asked surprised.
“Hai, she was a noob, but a great one. The night of the festival was a great night, I can tell.” Teru winked.
“Man! You always get lucky. First Megumi, then Eri and god knows who’s next.” Jiro replied.
“Yea, well…” Teru sighed, “I’ll go check on miss Eri.”
Knock Knock
“Come in.”
“Aaah I see you found the bathrobe.”
“Hai! Arigatou Teru.”
“You’re welcome Eri. So, tell me. What brings you to my house?”
Eri sighed, “I don’t know how to tell you this, but… you’re the father of my unborn child.” Eri did not face Teru, ashamed off herself.
“Hahaha!” Teru laughed, “You really think I’m falling for this crap?”
“Excuse me?” Eri asked shocked, “You don’t believe me?”
“IIE, never! God knows how many you had.”
“Excuse me! I’m not a whore! I’m 100% sure that it’s your baby!”
“So desu ka?”
“Hai!, really. I… I was a virgin. Keita didn’t want to have sex before we got married. I’m not a person who cheats. You were the only one… I can’t get you off my mind Teru.”
Eri started to cry and Teru felt sorry for her. “Yea well… What do you want me to do about it?”
“I don’t know Teru. I know nothing anymore. I prayed to god that it wasn’t true and that we were just a nightmare. But us happened and now… I just don’t know what to do anymore.”
“Well, let’s think. You’re engaged with Keita, and pregnant with my child… You can’t say it’s his, because you never shared yourself with him. Abortion is not an option… right?”
“Iie.”
“I already have two ex-wives… I don’t want to get married again. My children? I hardly see them… Coming here was a bad mistake Eri. I can’t help you.”
“But…? What shall I do?”
“I don’t care. Tell your future husband about the games you’re playing and pay the price honey. I don’t want you, nor your child. You are just like your sister… a first class whore. You both cheated on your men and both got pregnant by me. What a joke! Go home Eri and leave me alone.”
Chapter 08.
“Megumi-chan?” Hyde said looking around for Megumi.
“Yes?”
“Oooh there you are,” He replied and walked into the kitchen, “I was wondering if we could have a normal talk without: yelling, pushing, calling names at each other, crying, etc.?”
“Uuum… Sure, what’s up?”
“The big mistake you made was around the festival right?” Hyde asked while Megumi nodded confused, “So, many men were around, many many many men were there… You never told me with who you… well you know. All I want to know is… who’s the father?”
“The father? Of …?” Pointing at the baby behind her, which was taking another bite of his cookie.
“Yes Megumi?”
“Why do you want to know? Is it important? Does it matter if you know or not?”
“Megumi-chan… Please?”
Megumi got all nervous, “It’s uuum, it’s…” Megumi swallowed and took a deep breath, “It’s Teruhiko Kobashi’s baby.”
“Teruhiko Kobashi’s baby? Teru from Glay?”
Megumi nodded.
“Wow… At least he’s handsome.” Hyde turned around and started to walk away.
Megumi grabbed his arm, “That’s it?”
“Yes, told you I only wanted to know who the father was.”
“Haido-san… Are you ok?”
“Hai Megumi-chan. Oh… One more thing, does he know?”
“Hai, he knows.”
The baby started to cry. “He’s hungry… May I feed him?”
Megumi smiled and give him a bottle of baby food. She taught him how to feed the child.
“YOU F.UCKING WHORE!”
“Eri?” Megumi looked at Hyde, “Eri are you oke?”
“Oh hell yea! You’re such a slut.”
“Excuse me Eri?”
“Don’t give me the ‘what are you talking about’ look. How could you?”
“Eri please, how could I what?”
Eri faced towards Hyde. “Hyde, the baby that you’re holding right now ain’t yours. It’s Teruhiko Kobashi’s baby.”
“Hai, I know.”
“You know? How can you make peace with it? Your wife cheated on you and got pregnant! And you’re oke with it?”
“Eri… What’s wrong? Why are you so upset?” Megumi asked. She walked towards Eri, she opened her arms for a hug, but Eri refused.
“Don’t you touch me. Bi.tch. That’s why you didn’t want me to love him, you love him yourself.”
“Oh my god… Please, tell me Eri that you didn’t see him more then ones? Please, don’t tell me you’re pregnant of him too…” Megumi’s tears fell down from her eyes.
“Dry your tears oneesan. It’s already to late to feel guilty now.” With these words she left.
“Teru? It’s me, Megumi.”
“I thought I told you not to call me anymore. I’m done with you.”
“I know and I’m sorry to disturb you, but Eri’s missing. Is she with you?”
“What makes you think she’s with me… Megumi?”
“I know all about it Teru, she told me. She ran away, please tell me if you know where she is.”
Teru sighed, “No Megumi, she’s not here. I told her to stay away from me, I didn’t see her after that.”
“F.uck it!” Megumi started to cry.
“Megumi? Are you ok? Listen, Eri needs some time on her own, she’ll come back ok? …Look, if I see her or if she comes to my house then I’ll give you a call ok? I got to go, sorry Megumi.”
“Arigatou Teru, bye.”
Teru already hung up the phone before her last words. She looked at Hyde. “No luck.” She said.
“No luck on my side either.”
“She’s not with Keita either?”
Hyde shoke his head. “We’ll find her, or she’ll find us. Don’t worry…” Hyde hugged his wife gently.
“This is all my fault Hyde… If I didn’t made the mistake, then she would still be with me. What’s wrong with me Haido-san? Why couldn’t I care on that very moment in time?”
“Sssh Megumi-chan. It happened, we can’t turn back the hands of time. Let it be and it’ll all be fine.”
Chapter 09.
“Is she still missing?”
“Hai Gackto-san. It’s stressful.”
“I know. Is that why you cam here? To relax?”
Hyde looked at Gackt. ‘He dressed up so nicely. Is it because of me? Oh how I wish I could undress his sexy clothes with my eyes and then study him with my hands.’ “No Gackto-san. It has been a long time since I’ve seen you. I wanted to see you again.” ‘And I came to ask for your kiss, and touch…’
“What a surprise Haido-san. I designed a new underwear line for men. Do you want to see? I’ll be your personal model.” Gackt said with a big smile.
Gackt was always as crazy as he could be when Hyde was around. ‘I love your smile Haido-san. Smile for me…’
“You’re a.ss looks so fine in these new underwear Gackto-san. Have you been working out lately?”
“But of course, always. You never know when someone wants to enter the backdoor…”
“Hahaha! Gackto-san, you’re so funny! Aishiteru!”
“Watashi mo aishiteru Haido-san. Let’s dance the Tango.”
Both laughed out loudly. Hyde almost fell of the sofa from laughing. Gackt, still standing in his pink male g-string, placed a rose between his teeth; walked over to Hyde and pulled him of the sofa and started to dance the Tango with him.
“Oh.. my.. GOD!”
“Mana? What are you doing here?” Gackt asked with a smile.
Mana raised his eyebrow.
“What? You don’t like my new men’s underwear line?”
Mana looked over to Hyde, whom was holding the rose Gackt gave him while blushing. Then he faced Gackt again. “Here, you left this at my home.”
Gackt looked at his self made cd for Mana, “Oh, that’s ok. Thank you. Do you want something to drink?”
“No thank you. I had enough.” Mana said and left.
“What was that all about Gackto-san? Why did he gave you that cd?”
“No, never mind. I got to go and get dressed. Could you give me a ride to the studio?”
“Yea, sure. I’ll wait here while you get dressed.”
Gackt walked away, he left the cd on a table. Hyde walked over and studied the cd.
‘Hmmm, self made by Gackt? ‘For my dearest love, Mana. Hope you’ll enjoy the songs I have written for you. Remember that I’ll always love you… Gackt.’ Is this a gift to Mana? Then why would he return it?’
Hyde heard footsteps, Gackt’s footsteps. Hyde rushed himself to the nearest window. “Great garden Gackto-san… Did you change it again?”
“No? Does it look different?”
“Um, yes? It looks more um… more um, green?”
“Hmmm,” Gackt stood next to Hyde, “Yea, you’re right. It looks more… green. Let’s go.”
‘Pfff, what was I thinking? Going through Gackto-san’s personal stuff. And he almost caught me red handed!! Sorry Gackto-san, but I… I love you so much. I’m in…’
“Haido-san! Watch out for that car!!” Gackt screamed.
Hyde snapped out of his mind, “Sorry Gackto-san, I was lost.”
“Hyde? Are you ok? You look pale. Did something happen?”
“No, nothing happened. I just realized that I’m in lo… No!”
“No?”
“Yes?... never mind. I’m going to be ok.” Hyde said while wiping the sweat off his forehead. “Aaah, here we are. Have fun!”
“You know you’re weird right? Get some rest and relax.” Gackt said.
Hyde didn’t face Gackt and drove away with high speed. Hyde turned on his radio while driving without a goal. ‘Bôa - Little Miss’ was playing.
“In the evening, when you come home
You save the whisky and you talk about your dreams
And you hold her when she cries 'cause
She's feeling lonely - the same way that you do
When you're feeling the way you're feeling now
You hold the pillow and you think about her
And when she holds you, your cold stare melts
And your heart warms to her
Oh this girl - she's got to you and you're afraid of it
She gives you everything but that's not what you wanna do
And in the morning, you're just gonna turn around
You break it - you're gonna break the bond
You're gonna smash the bottle of whisky
And after all the things that she told you
You're gonna make love like you never have
You're gonna make it feel like she meant nothing to you
She's gonna cry now and wonder why now
The way you make her feel.”
Chapter 10.
[Credits goes to Chantal@wflforums]
‘Ok, this is it. It’s time to confess.’
Eri opened her front door and entered her home. It was awful quiet.
“Hello? Kei-san? Anyone there?”
‘Hmmm, no reply… Where could they be? It’s a Friday night… Keita’s always at home on a Friday night.’
She heard the door opening behind her. Keita stepped into the house.
“Oh my god, where have you been?” Eri asked.
“Excuse me? I was at the police station looking for you, where the hell where you?” Keita replied angry.
Eri started to cry like a little baby, “I’m so sorry Kei-san! I’m a bad person who doesn’t deserve you.”
“Oh Eri, it’s ok, don’t cry.” Keita walked over to Eri and hugged her. He guided her to the living room where they sat down on the sofa. “Tell me, what happened. Why did you ran away? You made us worry about you!”
“I don’t know how to tell you this Kei-san. I’m going to hurt you so much, no matter what.” Eri took of her engagement ring and placed it in Keita’s left hand. “I don’t deserve to wear this ring any longer. I’m caring a child inside of me Keita… On the night of the festival I… When we had the fight I went outside and there I met Teru from Glay and we had sex. I met him a few times again after that night. I… I never wanted to hurt you. I love you… But I guess not enough… Or else I wouldn’t have… Right?”
Keita just stared at ring in his hand. He stood up. “People warned me. People told me the same story, but I never ever believed a word, because I love you with all my heart. There’s no one else for me in this world, but you. You’re the only one who understands me, who cares truly for me, guess that was all a lie… You destroyed me Eri. Pack your bags and get out of my house. Keep the f.ucking ring honey.” He threw the ring in her face while saying those last few words.
“Megumi? Konbanwa, How are you?”
“Good Keita, thank you for asking. Why are you calling?”
“Eri is home, well home? She’ll be leaving soon. The wedding’s off.”
“Oh, I’m sorry for you Keita… She told us before she ran off. We were hurt as well. Hope you will find luck in the future.”
“Yea, me too. Listen Megumi, I got to go. I’m sleepy. Have a nice evening.”
“You too Keita. Bye.”
“Bye.”
Megumi hung up the phone.
“Who was it?” Hyde asked.
“Keita, Eri’s ok. She told him… The wedding’s off.”
“Poor Keita…”
“Yea, I’m going to call Teru. I’m going to tell him that Eri’s ok, ok?”
“Yea, sure.”
“Konbanwa Teru. This is Megumi speaking. Sorry to disturb you this late, but I just wanted you to know that Eri’s ok. She’s back.”
“Aaah, that’s nice to know… When will you visit me again? I miss you.”
“Teru, we can’t! I’m married.”
“That didn’t stop you before… Why does it now?”
“He knows, I told him. He even knows it’s yours. He finally accepting it bit by bit. I don’t want to destroy it all again.”
“Aaaw come on Megumi. I need you. Badly.”
“No Teru, your dick needs me badly, not you. I got to go. Oyasumi!”
“F.uck off!”
“Ohhh....Oh, oh, ohh...
Every time I think about you
Heaven knows I fall into a groove
You're like a great interlude
Every time I think about your body my body says ooh ooh
Every time I think about you
Heaven needs a prayer
Cuz you're married and even got a family too
Pray that they don't hear you
Now let me see you dance on your tippy toe (Ooh)”
‘This song fits us Megumi. I’ll destroy whatever is left of you and Hyde, so you can be mine and mine only. I don’t want your child, I only want your body. I don’t want you to love me, just please me. That’s all I’m asking for…’
Chapter 11.
“Play with me Gackt. I need you baby.”
“Stop it Mana!” Gackt said while pushing Mana off him.
“Why?” Mana replied with big innocent doggy eyes.
“You know why. I don’t love you anymore. In fact I hate you for what you did to me. I gave you a second chance over and over again, but every time that we’re alone you jump on top of me.”
“So?” Mana asked with a naughty look.
“Does it never ever occurre to you that it might hurt me?”
“Hmmm, let me think… no.”
“That’s what I mean. You don’t give a d.amn about me, not even if you wanted to. You’re nothing but a worthless peace of s.hit Mana.”
“Fine, if you want it that way. Go f.uck your puppy Hyde.”
“Excuse me?”
“Oh, don’t play innocent. You know what I’m talking about. Everyone can see it. You two are in love.”
“Hahaha, You’re so funny and lame Mana.”
“You can’t lie to me, never could.”
“I see, you’re jealous. Hyde and me… It’s never going to happen, not even in my wildest dreams. You know why? Because he has a lovely wife he loves and a child to take care off.”
Gackt knew he was lieing, but not to Mana… But to himself.
“Had a rough day, Gackto-san?”
“Hai.” Gackt’s eyes followed every move Hyde made. “You’re beautiful.”
“Huh? … Oh, arigatou Gackto-san. What makes you say so?”
“It’s the truth. Haido-san, did you ever feel more for me than just friends?”
“Naze?”
“Because I want to know. Please tell me.”
“Ok… Hai, I did.” Hyde started to blush, “Sometimes I still do, Gackto-san.”
Gackt started in front of himself.
“Gackto-san? Why are you crying? Is there something wrong?”
“I went to visit Mana… I know you studied the cd he gave me. Yes, Mana and I were lovers. I loved him so much, so so much. He still hurts me, I thought he was the one for me. He broke up with me, because I left the band. He felt as I left him. We kept on seeing each other though. But I found out I wasn’t the only one he was seeing. I told him to stop. He told me that my heart would always be his. But when he returned my gift to him… I lost it. The pain inside… It was too much.”
“Gackto-san, you don’t have to tell me this if you don’t want to. I never saw you like this before…”
“Yea well… Mana and I were engaged.”
Hyde couldn’t believe it. He remembered Gackt being happy, very happy, a long time ago. ‘He was so happy with his ring… He totally freaked out when he lost his ring before his performance.’
“The reason why I’m telling you this is because I want you to know. I don’t want you to hear Mana’s lies. Mana never had reasons to tell you his lies, but now he has some. You know You right? You fell in love me after the break up with Mana. I slept with him a couple of times, but I never fell in love with him. Mana got jealous and told You his lies. I tried to explain to You and tell my side of the story, but he never believed me.”
“And why would Mana have reasons to tell me lies? I really don’t get it.”
“You just told me you felt more for me than just friends. He knows. He’s jealous. He also knows I love you… That’s something he can’t bare. He wants us apart. I don’t want him to succeed…”
“Did you just say … ? You love me? Like you’re in love with me?”
“Hai Hyde. I tried to fight it. Knowing you have your family, your own worries and problems. I can’t take you away from Megumi and your son. But I also can’t be silent anymore. Hai, I’m in love with you.”
Hyde stood up and sat down next to Gackt. “You know Gackto-san… You’re kawaii.” Hyde kissed Gackt’s tears away. “Don’t cry for me Gackto-san.”
Gackt held onto Hyde like he was never going to let go. “Don’t you ever let go of me Haido-san.”
“I won’t sweety, I won’t.”
Hyde left late that evening. He waited till Gackt calmed down and left.
“Where have you been? It’s almost one o’clock…” Megumi said worried.
“I was at Gackt’s place…” avoiding Megumi’s deathly eyes.
“Oooh, but of course. I should have known better. ‘I was at Gackt’s place…’, right when aren’t you? You spend day and night time together with Gackt. I wonder who you married, me or him. I wonder about who you fancy more? Jezus! Think of what you’re doing. People are talking you know…”
“Megumi-chan… What’s wrong? Gackt and I are best friends! Of course we’re many times together, what’s wrong with that? What am I suppose to think when you’re going out with friends? That you’re lesbian or cheating on me? People talk? They always do, especially about people like me and Gackt. Why can’t you respect me Megumi-chan? Did I ever treaded you wrong? With disrespect?”
“…”
“Well?”
“Iie…”
“Then s.hut the f.uck up.”
Chapter 12.
“Wishing on a dream that seems far off
Hoping it will come today
Into the starlit night
Foolish dreamers turn their gaze
Waiting on a shooting star
But
What if that star is not to come?
Will their dreams fade to nothing?
When the horizons darkens most
We all need to believe there is hope
Is an angel watching closely over me?
Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see
I know my heart should guide me but
There's a hole within my soul
What will fill this emptiness inside of me?
Am I to be satisfied without knowing?
I wish is then for a chance to see
Now all I need (desparately)
Is my star to come...”
“Jenny Stigile… Winds Nocturne… Beautiful song…” Gackt said to himself out loud. “01.45 AM. Ok ladies and gentleman, it’s time to go home and time for me to go to bed. Big day tomorrow, need to work on my album; Do I hear an applause? yes yes I know I know, thank you thank you; plus I have another tv show. I’m special guest… Like always.”
Gackt stood up and walked over to every burning lamp in the house and turned it off. He just could have pushed one button and everything would go out at ones, but he drank a little to much to remember. He made his way up to the bedroom. It was dark, very dark.
“Konbanwa Gackto-san.” A familiar voice said.
It was like a dream coming true. Hyde was lying naked on his bed. “Haido-san, is that really you? What are you doing here… Naked?”
“Waiting for you, my love. My dearest Gackto-san.” Hyde stood up and walked around Gackt. He whispered in Gackt’s ear: “Take off your clothes.”
Gackt didn’t wait, not even a minute and started to undress right away. He was naked in no time. “Is this better?” He said with a hoarsed voice.
“Much better” Was Hyde’s reply. He pushed Gackt on the bed and got on top. “You’re so lovely Gackto-san. Let me ride you like a horse, a big horse.” Hyde moved down and sucked Gackt’s big cock till it was completely wet. The he sat down on Gackt’s penis and pushed it in his beautiful tight anus.
“Aaah yes, beautiful… Beautiful tight a.ss Haido-san. Hmmm yea, ride me baby.”
Gackt woke up smiling. Hyde was great. He stood out of bed and went straight into the bathroom for a nice hot shower. He needed to head off to the studio’s as soon as possible. He walked back into his bedroom and got shocked. He hoped his eyes were lying and what he saw wasn’t true. Yuko was lying naked in his bed, still asleep…
“Hmmm, Gacktosan.”
“Aaah! Oh my god! Yuko? What the f.uck are you doing here? [i]In MY bed[/i]? Did we…?”
“Don’t you remember? It was the best I ever had!”
“Oh god… I’m going to be sick. Let this be a dream, bad bad dream.” Gackt slapped himself on his cheek, “Wake up! Wake up! Wake Up!” He opened his eyes, “Oh God, oh no, you’re still here. How did you get it?”
“One of your maids let me in.” Yuko said with a big smile.
“I want you to get dressed and leave my bedroom, and my house right now.”
“Naze?”
“Because I do not wish to see you. Not now and not ever again. Plus I have a very busy day, so… Get the f.uck out of my house right now!”
“Gackt, more passion please.” His manager said.
“Ok, let’s try it again.” Gackt replied. “1, 2, 3…”
“Honey!”
“Ah!... huh? Oh no… Yuko? What are you doing here?”
“I brought my future husband his lunch.”
“Gackt? What’s this? Please leave you girlfriends and home, we’re busy.”
“Never mind, I’ll be right back, just a minute.” Gackt grabbed Yuko’s arm and dragged her outside the recording room. “What the hell is wrong with you? Why did you came here?”
“I brought you lunch…” Yuko said with a sad face.
“Bulls.hit! What are you doing here? Why did you call me your future husband? Are you sick or something?”
“Gackto-san! Please watch out for what you’re saying. You proposed to me last night.”
“No I did not!”
“Yes you did! You were drunk, but I knew you meant it.”
“You and I both know which name I screamed and it wasn’t yours. Yes I was drunk and I have a broken heart. That proposal was not meant for you but for … never mind, it doesn’t matter. All I’m trying to say is what I said to you on the phone. You were just an one night stand. I’m sorry if you feel different, but my heart belongs to someone else.”
“Why do you love him so much? He has a wife and a child, doesn’t that say enough? He’ll never come to you. He’ll never leave his wife and child, no matter how much he loves you. Yes, I know which name you screamed. Yes, I know the proposal was for him, not for me. But we’re getting older, you need a family too. Merry me Gackto-san and be happy.”
“Get out, leave this building and leave my life. You have made yourself clear. Stop calling me Gackto-san.”
“You really are blinded by love aren’t you? People talk Gackt.”
Chapter 13.
“Gackto-san, is it true?”
“Hai.”
“Why? Why Gackto-san?”
“How should I know she would go to the media? Is it my fault Haido-san?”
“You’ve hurt her much Gackto-san. Did you really think a girl like her would shut her mouth? She’s looking for fame and money. She’ll get it, no matter what.”
“I’m sorry Haido-san, what else do you want me to say? I can’t deny what she told the media. I dream about you every night. When someone nocks on the door, I hope it’s you. I walk alone, but I imagine you beside me. I can’t deny what I feel any longer. Let the world know, I don’t care.”
“Megumi freaked out when she saw this article Gackt! She’s my wife! How on earth could you be so stupid? I can’t leave her, I can’t. We can’t be together Gackt, we can’t. So dream on, because it will never happen. And now I have to go home to a wife who thinks I’m cheating on her with you. She’s torn apart by this.”
Hyde left Gackt’s hotel room, slamming the door behind him. Yuko went to the media, she told them everything about Gackt’s little secret. How much he drunk every night before falling asleep, how he called out Hyde’s name while having sex, about how deeply in love he was with Hyde. She told them everything, it was payback time.
“Where have you been? Oh wait! Why should I ask when I know the answer? You were with Gackt! Was he good? Tell me because I would love to know.”
“Megumi-chan stop this! I told Gackt what the deal was, ok? I’m not seeing Gackt and I will never leave you, because I still hope that someday this family shines.”
“Why can’t I believe you? I don’t trust you any longer Hyde.”
“You don’t trust me? How the f.uck do you think I’m feeling about you? You’re the one who’s cheating on me! I know you still see him. I can smell his cheep perfume all over you. I smell him right now. I should ask you how he was, tell me Megumi-chan, how was he?”
Megumi started to cry and fell down on the ground. Hyde was right, she did see Teru today and they had sex again.
“Oh no, don’t give me this now.” Hyde walked over to Megumi and pulled her up by her arm.
“Hyde, you’re hurting me!”
“You think I care? You hurt me along time ago.”
Hyde pushed her against the wall and tore her dress and panties.
“Is this what you want huh? A good and wild f.uck? Is this what he’s giving you? Pain, but pleasure?”
She tried to run off, but he pushed her back against the wall and placed his hand on her throat while opening his pants with his other. Hyde almost never wore underwear, too hot. He pushed himself in her and pumped in and out like crazy. Megumi screamed for help and begged Hyde to stop. It didn’t took Hyde long to climax.
“Oh yea! That’s really nice, now I know why Teru f.ucks you.”
Hyde pulled himself out of Megumi. His milk followed his way down along Megumi’s legs. Hyde looked at Megumi like she was dirt and let go of her, she fell on the ground.
Hyde spit on her and said: “You’re such a whore. I wonder why I married you. I wonder how I could ever like you… Make sure you clean up your mess before you leave.”
Gackt stood on his balcony, all alone in the dark. He was drunk again and sang along with J – Confession.
“When I look into your eyes and see
All I see is you and me
Can't you see the want within my heart?
It's all about you
Love to hear you voice at night
It softly calling out my name
Boy you're sending chills straight down my spine
With your caresses
You got me fining for you love
You know you're all I'm thinking of
Baby never leave me
Can't you see, you're all I want oh yeah
Maybe, you were sent from up above
Baby, know you're all I'm dreaming of
When I look into your eyes and see
All I see is you and me
Can't you see feel the love within my heart?
It's all for you baby
If you hold me in your arms tonight
Boy I'll make you feel just right
Stay with me, you'll never need to find another lover
My reflection in you eyes
So softly takes my breath away
Boy you fill me up with your sweet love
There’s no other
You got me fining for you love
You know you're all I'm thinking of
Baby never leave me
Can't you see, you're all I want oh yeah
Maybe, you were sent from up above
Baby, know you're all I'm dreaming of
When I look into your eyes and see
All I see is you and me
Can't you see feel the love within my heart
It's all for you baby
If you hold me in your arms tonight
Boy I'll make you feel just right
Stay with me, you'll never need to find another lover
When I look into your eyes and see
All I see is you and me
Can't you see feel the love within my heart
It's all for you baby
If you hold me in your arms tonight
Boy I'll make you feel just right
Stay with me, you'll never need to find another lover
If you take me home with you tonight
Boy I’ll make you feel just right
Baby stay with me, you can trust me baby
If you hold me in your arms tonight
Boy I'll make you feel just right
Stay with me, you'll never need to find another lover
When I look into your eyes and see…”
Chapter 14.
Hyde just sat there; in a lifeless house; at the bottom of the stairs; with a bottle of whiskey.
“Hey, Teru, haven’t you heard yet?”
“What Jiro? I’m busy writing new songs so hurry.”
“You must hear this. Hyde left Megumi, she needed to move out.”
“What? From who did you get this Jiro?”
“People saw her packing and leaving, crying. She looked really depressed.”
“Thank you Jiro. Love you man!”
Teru stood up and walked away. He walked upstairs to his bedroom where he phoned Megumi.
“Konnichiwa, this is Megumi Oishi speaking. I’m not available at this moment, please try again another time. Or leave your phone number and a message and I’ll call you back. Mata ne!”
“Megumi-chan, it’s me sweety. Where are you? I heard the news, are you ok? Please come and live with me. We’re such a good couple. I’ll take care off you, don’t you worry. Let me know where you are and I’ll come and make you mine. Um, ai... Aishiteru Megumi-chan… I mean it…”
Megumi walked into the livingroom; sadly. Eri sat in front of the tv watching some drama soap.
“Oneesan?”
“Hai?”
“You’ve got one message on the answering machine.”
“…From who?”
“Teru.”
“From Teru?” Megumi repeated confused. She walked over to the answering machine and listened to Teru’s message.
“Megumi-chan, it’s me sweety. Where are you? I heard the news, are you ok? Please come and live with me. We’re such a good couple. I’ll take care off you, don’t you worry. Let me know where you are and I’ll come and make you mine. Um, ai... Aishiteru Megumi-chan… I mean it…”
Megumi became very angry after she listened to his words.
‘First you f.uck me and make me pregnant. Then you want me to f.uck off. Next you make my baby sister pregnant and play her the same way you did with me. And now you want me? F.uck you Teru and go to hell!’
Megumi picked up the answering machine and threw it through the living room, where it hit the wall and smashed into pieces. Eric got shocked by her sisters actions.
“Oneesan? Are you ok?”
“Iie imouto. I’m sorry. I’ll be right back ok? I’m in my room.”
“Megumi-chan! I have been waiting for your call. How are you doing sweety?”
“Leave me alone.”
“What?”
“You heard me.”
“But why? Now we can be finally together. I love you Megumi-chan!”
“Too bad, because I don’t love you. I just used you for some good plain sex. You’re the reason why Hyde and I broke up, Hyde and I are over. So please do me a favour and leave me alone. I don’t want you anymore. And stop calling. Damnit!”
Megumi hung up the phone. It costs her a lot of her energy to stay calm, but she couldn’t stop her tears. She knew she lots something she loved mostly, Hyde. Eri walked into the room, worried.
“Oneesan? Are you ok?”
“Iie, look at us! Crying over the same man and problems. Look where it brought us Eri… HELL!”
“Well well oneesan, cheer up and calm down. Ok, this ain’t a luxury flat, but it ain’t hell either. So we made the same mistakes, but that doesn’t make us women doomed. We’ll be just fine oneesan. Just relax, pressure ain’t good for us.”
“Keita! Look! Isn’t that Eri’s elder sister?” Ryohei said pointing at the shop-window while passing it.
Keita stopped walking and look at the tv inside the shop-window. The daily news channel was on 15 different tv’s.
‘This morning Hyde announced that he and his soon to be ex-wife will get divorced this month. Hyde did not name the reasons for this divorced, but sadness covered his face. What harm did Megumi Oishi do to Hyde.’
“Hmmm, yes it’s her and I think I know what she did…”
“What do you mean keita?” Ryuichi asked confused.
“Never mind. It doesn’t matter anymore. They are both history now. Japan will remember their names, but I won’t…”
Chapter 15.
[Credits goes to Chantal@wflforums]
“When that man and I are wed
I’m gonna keep him warm in bed
And when my man’s no longer hot
I’m gonna…”
Gackt pushed the ‘stop’ button on the radio.
“Gackto-san!”
“Hush! I want to know Haido-san. Why did you file divorce? And why did I need to hear it from someone else? You were happy…”
“Tsss… Ass.hole.” Hyde reached out for the bottle of whiskey, but Gackt reached it sooner.
“No more whiskey for you. Come on Haido-san. Talk to me.” Gackt sighed, “Has it to do with me? And what I said to you before?”
“Not everything is about you, GA-KU-TO!” Hyde turned his face away, “…Sorta.”
“Sorta? So 50% has to do with me? And what I said?”
“Hai.”
“And the other 50%?”
“Megumi…The whore!”
“Haido-san!”
“Well it’s true! You were so right! That b.itch slept with Teru from Glay, and guess what? So did her lil ‘imouto’. Gackto-san… guess who’s child it is… Because it sure ain’t mine.”
“Oh my god…” Gackt whispered. He fell back in his seat and took a pull from the whiskey.
“Yea… I truly love you Gackto-san.”
“Hyde… Don’t say things you don’t mean. You’re hurt.”
“No Gackto-san! Why don’t you ever listen to me? I loved you since the day we met. I… I couldn’t stop thinking of you. You were so pretty and sexy and… Unreachable.”
“Unreachable?” Gackt asked confused.
“Hai. I… I heard you were with Mana at that time. I gave up and then I met Megumi. I wanted to confess to you the night before I got married, but I heard you and Mana… Having some real fun.”
“Haido-san…”
“I couldn’t bare it Gackt.” Tears fell from Hyde’s eyes, “…I swore to god that I would be faithful to Megumi and that I would stop thinking of you… But I just couldn’t. You put me under your spell Gackto-san. Every time I saw you I felt the pain inside, I wanted to tell you how much I loved you… And after Megumi told me about her mistake, I yearned for you even more.”
“Why did you never tell? Were you afraid for a scandal? Did you…? Did you want a clean name? A fake family? What was it that you wanted most Hyde?”
“YOU! Goddam.nit! I love you more than my own life!” Hyde cried out, “I hate myself… I hate myself for telling you now and not back then. I know I’m a f.ucking fool. What was I thinking anyway? You know, I don’t even know why I stayed with her…”
A moment of silence followed. Hyde was crying and Gackt was speechless.
“Gackto-san…?”
“Hmmm?”
“Are you and Mana still together?”
Gackt started to laugh, “Ofcourse not silly. Do you think of me as some kind of player? No Mana and I are over, though he still wants me.”
“Is there still someone else?”
“Iie, only you. I want only you.”
“What about all the one night stands and You?”
“You and I agreed to be just roommates and band members. The one night stands… I never liked them…”
“Huh? Then why did you…? Now I’m confused.”
“Why do you think? I wanted something I couldn’t get, you. I dreamed of you day and night. You make me horney with every move and word you say. What else was I suppose to do? It was just sex.”
“Haha, I love you.”
“I love you too.”
“You, have you heard? Gackt and Hyde are a couple now. I bet they want to live together. How do you feel about this?”
“Mana, shut up. Gackt is finally happy now. You broke us apart, but you can’t break them apart. Not even with your biggest lie. So don’t even think I would help you, not even for one second.”
“But… But you love him!”
“Yes and because I do I can’t hurt him.” You sighed, “Mana, leave him alone. He will never come back to you. Not after all you’ve done. He truly hates you.”
“If someone hates you, then they also love you.”
“Not in this case Mana and you know.”
“But you have to help me! I can’t live without him. I’ll kill myself!”
Chapter 16.
Hyde woke up smiling. Gackt’s arms were still around his slim body. It felt save, warm and for the first time in his life he felt truly loved.
“hmm, goodmorning Haido-san.” Gackt pulled Hyde closer to his naked body.
Hyde felt Gackt’s hard member. Hyde giggled, “Ohayou sweety. Slept well?”
“I have waited for so long, to wake up with you in my arms is like a dream coming true. So yea, I have slept wonderfully.”
“Great!” Hyde smiled and kissed Gackt softly on his lips, “We should do this more often.”
“Yes, you’re right, we should do this more often. Ripping each other’s clothes off and making you mine.”
“Haha, Gackto-san…” Hyde blushed and a moment of silent fell, “Can we… Can we buy our own house? I mean, I can’t go back to the same place, awful memories are buried in that house. And you live with You now…”
Gackt placed a finger on Hyde’s lips. “Big or small?”
“Huh?”
“Just choose, big or small?”
“Big.”
“Stone or wood?”
“Wood.” Hyde smiled.
“White, black or brown?”
“White…?”
“Oneesan?”
“Hai?”
“Teru’s here for you… I’ll be at Kaori’s place if you need me.”
“Ok! Don’t come home late!” Megumi said without looking up.
Teru walked into the living room slowely. Megumi looked up, she saw he had been crying.
“You look so beautiful today,” He said, “May I sit down?”
All Megumi could do was nod. ‘He’s hurt…?’
“Are you ok?”
“No, I’m not. I realized something painful, what a fool I’ve been. I let you walk out of my live with my son. I made your sister pregnant out of revenge? And I saw you drifting away from me every time you left my home again. Just plain sex? God! I messed up big time. I know sorry won’t do and nothing else will make it right again. What I did was… Does it matter? We all know it was wrong even if we knew the reason. I know I can’t make you forget the past or …Hyde. But marry me Megumi, let me make you smile again. Let’s turn just plain sex into love. Let me see how our son grows older.”
Megumi couldn’t believe the words he spoke neither did she truly realize it and started to laugh.
“Huh? Megumi?”
“Hahaha! Hilarious! What about Eri? What about her baby? What about my son? He thinks Hyde is his dad! What about the media? Iie, I won’t marry you, never!”
“But why not?” And tears fell down from his eyes again.
“I just told you a second ago and many times before that. How many times do I have to repeat myself? I love Hyde!”
How can you say you still love him? After all he did to you?”
“He has his reasons!”
“Never mind then. You’re as rotten as he is. But I can tell you this now Megumi-chan. We will die together with our son!”
Megumi heard the door slam back into it’s frame with a loud ‘bang’. She walked up to the window where she saw Teru step into his car and leave. ‘How could I…?’
Tears fell down on Eri’s picture.
“How could you..?” He whispered through his tears.
’knock knock’
The door swung open and Ryohei rushed in like crazy.
“Hey Kei-sama, wanna go shop..ping? What’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
“It’s nothing, I’m just torn. Didn’t think I would miss her this much. It feels like my heart is slowely dieing without her Ryo-sama!”
Ryohei walked up to Keita and sat beside him on Keita’s bed. He hugged Keita and held him till he was calm.
Chapter 17.
Mouth to mouth. Tongues playing erotic naughty. Body to body. Four hands feeling everywhere. Clothes lying around the house. They were lying naked on the sofa. Making love to each other.
Gackt stroke Hyde’s penis while licking Hyde’s erected nipple, biting it softly.
“Oh baby yea. Touch me!” Hyde moaned. He reached out and started to massage Gackt’s balls. He pushed one finger in Gackt’s anus. Pulling it out and back in.
“Hyde.. enter me. I can’t wait any longer. I want to feel you inject inside of me, please take me.”
“With pleasure.”
Gackt moved in the doggy style position, waiting for Hyde to enter him.
Hyde licked Gackt’s anus before he entered. “Man, you’re tide! Feels real nice.” Hyde said licking Gackt’s earlobe.
Gackt’s cheeks turned red and started to moan. Hyde placed his hands on Gackt’s butt and started to pump in and out slowly, watching his penis going in and out of Gackt’s anus, while Gackt started to masturbate. Hyde pulled himself out and started to lick and suck Gackt’s anus again.
“Oh baby, you’re anus is a bit too tide. One moment, I’ll put some lubricating jelly on it. It will be so nice and slippery and less painful for you my love.”
“Hyde! Kiss me first.”
Hyde got on his knees and held Gackt’s head while he let his tongue slid into Gackt’s mouth. Then he stood up and got the lubricating jelly and put it on Gackt’s butt and anus. He pushed himself back in and felt pleasure taking over. He couldn’t control himself any longer and went faster and faster and faster. Gackt screamed out hyde’s name, grabbing a pillow to hold.
“Aaah! Ah! Aaaaah! Ah!” Hyde climaxed and let himself fall on top of Gackt breathing heavily. “Sorry love.”
“Sorry?”
“…For hurting you.”
“Hmmm, oh no, that’s ok. Just…”
You opened the door of the apartment and saw Hyde and Gackt, naked, still connected to each other. It felt like knives stabbing into his heart. He loved Gackt. He sighed and covered his eyes and shouted: “Just pretend that I’m not here.”
Hyde and Gackt got up right away getting their butts back into their clothes. Hyde started to clean the place while Gackt rushed his way to You.
“You…”
“Sorry for interrupting Gackt.”
“Naah, that’s ok. We’ve been waiting for you.. I need to tell you something You.”
“Really? What’s that?” ‘That you’ll dump Hyde and marry me?’
“Well, I’m moving out. Hyde and I bought our own house. We also got engaged. I wanted to tell you sooner, but you weren’t at home. We would like to celebrate the good news.”
‘Good news? How can you call this good news? You’re leaving me Gackto-sama’ “That’s… nice.”
You forced a smile on his face, but Gackt saw right through it. ‘You could never hide your true colors well You’ Hyde walked towards them. “Hyde honey, could you please wait for me in the car? You and I have to talk in private for a minute.”
You looked up with big eyes, filled with tears. Hyde nodded and left the apartment.
“You… We talked about this.” Gackt sighed.
“Yea well… I can’t help what I’m feeling inside. I can’t help loving you. I wish I could be happy… But not for you both to be together. I want to see you happy with me and me only.” You cried out.
“You, I love you! And you know this, but not like lovers. We’ve tried that, but we failed.”
You sniffed, faced Gackt and said; “You know Gackt? Mana was right all along.”
You walked away without letting Gackt respond.
“Keita?”
“Yea, hi Eri.”
“Why are you calling me?”
“I wanted to know how you were doing… Ad the baby too.”
“We’re both doing fine. He’s growing bigger and bigger from the inside. I will have to go to the hospital soon and get ready for the delivery.”
“He?”
“Yea, I wanted to know.”
“I see,” Keita smiled, “Have you picked out a name yet?”
“Nope. …You surely are interested!”
“…Hmmm.”
“Keita?”
“Hai?”
“I would like it… If you could be there, when the baby comes. I don’t want to be alone.”
“Sure, I’ll be there. But won’t your sister be there too?”
“I’m not sure… She left a few days ago, leaving a note saying she took a vacation. I’m not sure if she’ll come back on time. She has been acting strange lately and off track.”
“Don’t worry. I will come…Eri-chan.”
“Arigatou Kei-san.”
Chapter 18.
1pm: Megumi goes for a walk with our son
3pm: Megumi comes back from the walk… She looks frustrated?
3.30pm: Eri, Megumi’s sister comes back home from the mall.
4pm: Megumi leaves the house, alone. She drives away… I follow
“Oh my god! The house looks absolutely great!” Hyde ran around in their new house.
“I’m glad you like the house,” Gackt pulld Hyde into a hug, “We’ll be living here for a life time, till death tare us apart.”
“You speak with such passion Gackto-san.” Hyde gave Gackt a kiss.
‘brr brr, brr brr’
“Haido-des.”
“…Dead will soon visit you, basterd!”
“Who’s this?”
The voice hung up the phone.
“What’s wrong sweet? Who was it?”
“I don’t know! I’m scared! He or she or it said dead would visit me soon. What does this mean Gackto-san? Why won’t they just let us be happy?” Tears fell from Hyde’s eyes and hugged his precious fiancé.
“Don’t worry. I’ll take good care of you and no one will harm you without harming me first.”
Megumi walked between the graves, searching for her mothers grave. When she found it, it was all covered with dirt and old plants. She started to clean her mothers grave and put in some newer plants.
“Mom?... I miss you so much. I’m sorry for not coming her in a long time. I screwed up. Why did the things happen the way they did?” Megumi sniffed and looked at the sky. It was getting dark. Clouds signed that rain was soon to come. “Eri grew up too fast, mom. I should have taken care of her more… and better. It’s all my fault. She’s getting a baby mom, a baby from the father of my son!”
“Our son; don’t you forget that Megumi-chan.”
Megumi looked up. “Teru? What are you doing here? Leave me alone! Leave my son alone! He will never be your son.”
“Suit yourself then.”
Teru aimed a gun at Megumi and fired it. ‘Megumi’s blood on her mothers grave… What a beautiful picture.’ He thought.
“He’s our son.” He turned and walked away. Heading to Megumi’s place to get to their son. To aim the same gun at their son and fire it. And to aim the same gun at himself to fire it. He left a note saying:
Our family is now reunited in heaven.
Loves Teru, Megumi & our son.
“Is there anything I can do for you?” Gackt asked gentle.
“No thank you, I feel so quilty. I want to go to their funeral. I… I feel like I have to. They used to be my family.”
“Hyde, look. It’s on the news. Do you wish to watch it?”
“No, I saw and heard it too many times already. I know what the pictures look like. I know every single word they say. I had enough of this. Why Gackt? Is this what the person on the phone meant? The dead of innocent people? I’m going to bed. Please join me, just hold me Gackto-san. I don’t want to be alone tonight.”
Chapter 19.
“We’re here today to say goodbye to Oishi Megumi and her son…”
Gackt held his Hyde till the ceremony was done and they waited till she was fully buried. Then they both put their white roses on the grave.
Hyde kneeled in front of the grave and spoke out loud; “I’m sorry for all that happened to you and to us. All I ever wanted is for us to be happy, even thought the baby wasn’t mine! I hope you saw the light and followed it to a better place far from here. God bless you two. I’ll miss you both very much!”
Hyde stood up. Many people left the graveyard a few hours ago; almost everyone. Gackt waited for Hyde by the car since he already shown his regards to the family. Hyde walked over to Eri who stood their with teary eyes, next to her stood Keita.
“Eri, Keita, I’m sorry for your lost, I really am.”
Both nodded their head. “Arigatou Hyde. I’m happy that you came. Even after everything that has happened, you still feel like family. I hope you and Gackt will find your happiness, like Keita and I did.” Eri showed Hyde her engagement ring.
“Wow, congratulations to you both! I’m happy for you. I also see it won’t be long till the baby comes.”
“Nope, two more months to go, but the doctor told me that the change of me giving birth sooner than planned is big. I certainly hope so! Sometimes pain is killing me, hahaha,” Eri’s smile disappeared, “I know Megumi will be proud of me and I know she’ll be with us always. She came to me in my dreams, telling me everything is fine and will be fine. She could see it all…”
“I see, good luck with both of you. Take care ok? Can’t let Gackt wait any longer.”
“Hyde, you will come to the wedding right?”
Hyde nodded and turned around. A weird breeze pushed him forward like it wanted for Hyde to walk faster like a warning. Hyde was now only a few meters away from Gackt and they smilled at each other.
‘Brr brr, Brr brr’
“Gackto-san.”
“Gackt! It’s me You. Listen I just wanted to ask if we could go out again? We haven’t been out for such a long time.”
“You, you know I’m with Hyde.”
“Well take him with you then! I’m not into you anymore Gackt. I changed my mind. I accepted the fact that you and Hyde are together and that it’s true love. I just want to have a good time again, that’s all!”
“Well in that cash I don’t see the problem, sure lets go out again. Btw I heard something like you and Mana have a ‘thing’ going on?”
“Hahaha, true. It’s really just a ‘thing’. Sometimes we kiss and have a bit of sex, but no feeling involved. No I’m in love with someone else!”
“Really? Who is it? Tell me about him.”
“Don’t get surprised when I tell you it’s not a him, it’s a her. And she works at a radio station, her name is Sayuri.”
“Well well well, what a surprise. Well just as long as you’re happy right? Show her to me sometime, I promise I won’t take her away from you with all my charms.”
“Yea yea yea, bla di bla di bla. Joker!”
“Hahaha! Yo Haido-san! You has finally got himself a girlfriend!” Gackt screamed towards Hyde
“It’s about time!” He replied
“Hahaha, you two go have sex or something! Crazy people! It’s not even official yet. I’m going to ask her out today and I will ask her to be my girl then!”
“Good luck to you You! I missed you friend!”
“I missed you too! Oops, got to go, band rehearsal! Mata ne!”
“Ja ne!”
Gackt closed his phone and slit it back into his pocket.
“Every single night I dreamed of you my dearest Gackt; of us being together. Every single day I tried to come closer to you and I succeeded… Until Hyde came and destroyed everything I build with you and my master plan to get to you. Can’t you see I’m the only one for you? You’re mine Gackt, and mine only.”
With a angry voice and teary eyes she walked close to the man she hated mostly, Hyde. Her dad worked in a gun store, he taught his baby girl how to fire a gun perfectly. She went with him hunting in the woods and was the champion of her home town. She was the best, she is the best. This morning she went to her fathers store and borrowed a gun which she aimed on her next target, Hyde.
Gackt looked up to see where Hyde was. It was a sunny day, nice warm breeze and summer time. His heart filled with joy as he watch Hyde coming closer. Something caught his eye. Yuko!
“NO! HAIDO-SAN!” Gackt screamed and ran as fast as he could.
BANG!
Shocked and scary faces looked their way. Yuko dropped the gun and fell down on her knees; “What have you done my love?”
Hyde held Gackt, as he fell on the ground.
“No, gackto-san, don’t die,” Hyde held Gackt in his arms. Yuko’s aim was Hyde, but instead it hit Gackt in his back, in his long. He jumped in front of his Hyde. “Why did you do that huh?” Hyde’s tears fell on Gackt’s face, he knew he was about to die.
“Remember, I told you…no one will harm you…without…harming me…first… Ai…shite…ru…” A tear escaped his eye as blood came out of his mouth, “Haido…san.” On that moment in time his body gave up.
“NO GACKTO-SAN! NOO! No no no no no Gackto-san. Watashi mo aishiteru!” Hyde pushed Gackt’s body even more closer to his, “WATASHI MO AISHITERU… AISHITERU GACKTO-SAN!”
Hyde faced the sky and screamed. His pain was unbearable. His throat was sore from screaming out Gackt’s name, his eyes were swollen from crying and everything else colored red by Gackt’s blood.
“Don’t leave me…” He whispered as he kissed Gackt one more time.
Monologue
[Credits goes to Chantal@wflforums]
Hyde stood in front of Gackt’s picture and he light a candle in front of the picture, like he did everyday.
“Exactly one year back in time Gackto-san… I miss you. This house is so empty without your laughter. Are you here Gackto-san? Aishiteru, I love you so much, please come back to me.”
You are already at that very far place,
Where I cannot reach no matter how far I run
Will you be safe there?
I think of you as a bad person,
The look in your eyes, your breathing and the warm touches of your hands,
The more I loved the lonelier I got,
To me, who has frozen so white that I find it difficult to speak,
You are the only one in this entire world.
It was more natural than breathing to me,
If I look at the sky, if I look only at the sky,
You come to my mind, I start to cry.
Even only when I’m dreaming, even only in my dreams,
Don’t do anything like look for me,
Because you can never understand, right? How hurt I am.
To me, who has burnt so black that I cannot even remember how to smile,
My mind is filled with you,
I, who tamed it like calming my breathing,
When I look at the sky, when I look at the sky,
I cant help but cry because you keep coming to my mind.
I should never have met you,
We can come out fine in the end it was all a lie,
You’re my life
Even only when I’m dreaming, even only in my dreams,
Don’t do anything like look for me,
You’re the only one in this world,
I found it more natural than breathing,
When I look at the sky, when I look only at the sky,
You come to my mind, I start to cry.
Secretly In Love Lyrics:
*Prologue: Buffy - Under your spell
*Chap. 01: Buck-Tick - Dress
*Chap. 04: Gackt ft Hyde - Orenenji no Taiyou
*Chap. 07: Norah Jones - Come away with me
*Chap. 09: Bôa - Little Miss
*Chap. 10: Utada Hikaru - Tippy toe
*Chap. 12: Jenny Stigile - Winds Nocturne
*Chap. 13: J – Confession
*Chap. 15: Katie Melua - Mockingbird Song
*Monologue: Loveholic - Sky (English Translation)
